Tequila Nights, Morning Shame?
Good Morning š
Last night I got pretty drunk.Ā 
Not āblack out, donāt remember my nameā drunkā¦
But whereas I normally have 1-2 drinks and then stopā¦
I had several.š
Now hereās the thingā¦
This was somewhat premeditated.Ā
Laura and I went out to dinner at a nice steakhouse thatās near usā¦
After that, we played blackjack for about an hourā¦
And then my best friend, who lives in the same neighborhood in Vegas as we do, came overĀ to watch some of the San Diego Padres game with us.
I hadnāt seen my friend in several monthsā¦
So we ended up hanging out until around midnightā¦
We had funā¦
Yet when I woke up this morning at 6 amā¦
My first instinct was to beat myself up.Ā
I thought:
āNice job Stefan. Only 6 hours of sleep. Youāre still half-drunk. You had stuff you wanted to get done today. Will you actually do any of that?ā
And I found myself continuously thinking:
āIām mad at myself, and Iām disappointed in myself.ā
Not sure if you can relate?
But yeah, that was the self-talkā¦
And thatās when I had to flip the switch.Ā
Because hereās the thingā¦
Why am I getting mad at myself, or punishing myself, for having a fun night?
I rarely drink excessively, so itās not like this was some negative pattern or behaviorā¦
It was a Saturday, itās not a Mondayā¦
And frankly, I donāt even feel that bad.Ā
Iāll probably still get some work done this afternoon while my daughter is napping tooā¦
So really, what is there to be upset about?
So I guess the reason Iām sharing thisā¦
Is because the ability to release yourself from guiltā¦
To give yourself permission to have funā¦
And to be in a mindset where, if you do something a little stupid, you donāt sit around hating yourself for itā¦
Is pretty powerful.
Because whatās the alternative?
That I just spend all morning in self-loathing?Ā
That I use a fun night as an excuse to be a grumpy jerk today?
What good comes of that?
So instead, Iām going for a three-mile walk around my neighborhoodā¦
Then spend the whole morning playing with my daughter.Ā
Weāll go swimming in the poolā¦
I may take her to breakfast with meā¦
And thereās a good chance weāll end up at a playground too.
Itās going to be awesomeā¦
Today is going to be a great dayā¦
And the reason why is because Iām choosing to be happyā¦
Instead of letting my actions have some profound impact over me.
Ā
– SPG
P.S. I know, kind of a weird topicā¦
But like I always sayā¦
Hey, this is my blogā¦
And Iām gonna write about whatever I feel like lol.Ā
P.P.S. This post originally came from an email I sent to my private list. If you want to see more stuff like this from me, you can apply to join my list using this link.
